48 years ago a girl said “oh fuck me” to her best friend while walking in the street, a guy who randomly passed by answered by “let me at least buy you dinner first”. I present to you my grandparents, in love since then and celebrating their 47 years of marriage today.
When i was at a lowpoint in my life a new guy came along, he made me feel like he was diffrent from other guys. He was so sweet and we had many common things, our first date was adorable. We watched sinister, then we went out to go see his sister who was my friend. After we went to eat at a great mexican restaurant, then we visited a friend of ours.. I was so happy that night, he gave me a red rose and my heart melted. I really thought we’d be together soon but it never became official, we would hangout with our friends, we went dancing and i remember just being touched and held by him on the dance floor i was happy and i felt super good and protected by his side.. After that we just slowly stopped talking and since he was my friends brother and we had alot of mutual friends we would see each other ALOT. For some reason i always had hope even after it had been long enough for me to should have given up! I eventually gave up because i just looked stupid, i wasnt inlove with him but i did care for him and really liked him.. I guess i never really mattered to him and he’d rater be with other girls then me. And that confuses me because i mean im not the SKINNIEST but im not the FATTEST. Im not the PRETTIEST but im not the UGLIEST. I have a big heard willing to give out to him? Im smart, i got alot going for me! Im a “good girl”, other guys think so too! So why am i not good enough for him?
My birthdays coming up in about a month, i don’t really know what to do, after what happened last year. I was so hurt that night, seeing my boyfriend walk right infront of my face with another girl, holding hands. Shit really hurt.. Especially because i forgave him after, and he kept fucking me over and over and over. After a while we broke up and haven’t gotten back together since.. Now im just scared, what can happen this year? Will i have a “happy birthday”?